NL recently told me that a suitor six years her junior is busy pursuing her. The very first thought that ran through my head was that: "WOW, six years is a HUGE gap." Then I thought to myself - well I did chase someone 4 years my senior so is it THAT different? (yeah ok, 50% difference but still!)
Listening to NL and reading some of the various emails/sms/chats between her and the guy and I was infinitely entertained and at the same time sheepishly humiliated by them. I constantly thought to myself - "was I that different?"
The conclusion was simply - no.
If anything what made this episode interesting and irritating at the same time is because the similarities are uncanny. difference unfortunately for me was that AC kept me around for longer than it was necessary.
We were so similar him and I - yet from this stand point I advised my friend to let the poor boy go...well actually destroy his spirit; because while nothing is certain in life the virtually certain outcome of this unfortunate liaison will only end in tears - and not necessarily his alone.
Each time I pointed out faults in the poor boys struggles it felt horribly familiar - because these words were once whispered to me during the tenderest of memories. Each time I thought of him as naive and immature I was actually criticising old myself - because we were so similar.
At the end of the day, I realised just how far I have traveled since, how much further I got to travel.
But far more troubling is the thought that I'm starting to come to terms with the thought that maybe I be walking this road alone.
